“It didn’t matter what our prior relationship was because it died along with the Mom I knew when the disease kicked in!”
My Mom passed away December 23, 2018 from #Alzheimers and it was long journey fraught with many trials along the way. Family members remained in a fog or denial right up to her death. During this journey, my only thought was, “I have to answer to God in the end” and taking care of my Mom is the right thing to do because she took care of me unconditionally. It didn’t matter what our prior relationship was because it died along with the Mom I knew when the disease kicked in! Yes, I had a new Mom. I had the Mom I thought I always wanted. The kind that asked how your day went or didn’t nit-pick every move based on her own unfulfilled desires. The kind who complimented my accomplishments not question why I didn’t achieve higher than I did. Some would think this is a good thing. However, it isn’t. I wanted to be able to argue with my Mom like I used to. I wanted her to question my every move. I wanted her to still tell me I was wrong even though I was right and the methodology was just opposite of hers. I didn’t have that Mom anymore. The Mom who formed me and guided me to be able to combat the trials I would face on this journey in taking care of her was gone! She set the bar really high on how to care for someone. We never wanted for anything. We had everything we needed under her watchful eye. We weren’t spoiled with material things but we were spoiled with love. I’m still not sure I met her standards. People tell me I did. People tell me I did a fantastic job taking care of her. I have my doubts. I know I will find out when I pass from this world and God says I did and doesn’t make me spend eternity in the sea of fire! There are so many things I could write about in the care of my Mom but I will keep them to myself for now. Baby-steps!
Donate to #Alzheimer’s research or just find out more about this dreadful disease by visiting The Alzheimer’s Association https://www.alz.org